off all the assingments and exams...

hey,

i'm sorry that i keep blogging only when i have exams, i guess it's just a way i vent i guess. well how's everyone been? the author has been good, gaining a bit of weight =( i'm trying to lose it so.. anyhu, the girlfriend's been fine. we just have plenty of exams and such. still waiting on the car decision.. cant seem to make that big step of parting with the money i spent 6 months saving up. im still working 3 jobs but i guess not as much. btw, i got promoted and im going to Sydney in a all expense paid trip to check out the new iphone in june.. i know u techies are psyched.:P so if anyone i know in Sydney's in june around the 27th, drop me a line..

mcg and starbucks are still there and they are getting pretty fun. starbuckers are awesome, we need another drinking round session. as for me.. im fine.. well at least i think im fine.. i don't know, sometimes my mind wonders off to my past as well as to where i am right now.. and i guess what im trying to say is im getting pretty bothered by this.. people think.. i know this for a fact. however its getting a little repetitive for me.sigh..

well i'll try to update more of posts as I've taken a vow to finish what I've started.. sorry faithful readers.. i'm back! :D

change.

hey there, the girlfriend has been complaining. its been about 4 months since my last post. change often gets the best of us. be it good or bad. i feel that we as people are often unprepared for change, and thus either get disappointed or surprised by it. therefore i feel that change ultimately makes us better people albeit with disappointment with some at first. i guess you can say that I've had some change during these four months. Some good and some bad. i shall start with the good one's first:

1. Tow Charng Wei. this name is the name of my new girlfriend. she picked me up during a time in which i was not myself. I'm glad that i have her now although certain things that i'm not proud of has been done to ensure that gladness. We have many similar interests as well as we love each other's company. i guess at the end of the day, that's all we really need. she's been a hit with all my family as well as my friends, so the future looks bright my friends, very bright indeed.

2. My Family. my family has always been dysfunctional.. to say the least. Dad's taken up the best job in the world down in kl while my mom joins him quite often. they spend most of their time in their new apartment(new photos up soon) and well they seem happy. so i cant complain. the thing i can complain about is how they treat each other's mother. i just hope and wish that they'd could just put aside their differences and learn to live with one another. Lizanne's still perfectly fine, although i am getting worried about her. shall not mention it here however it should be dissected sooner rather than later. Liza's getting married in October, so my very first wedding. am i nervous? am i looking forward to it? well those answers will come in due time.

3. Jobs/Uni. i'm getting so stressed out it's not even funny. i just find it a bit hard going back to uni after what happened last semester. but i have to. i got to. i cant let my parents down again. i just hope God's guidance is on me and i have to, no i must get back on the saddle.

as you can see, change has played a big part in my life, and i'm starting to resent change. however, without change, i wouldn't have met charng wei and therefore would not have found the love of my life. i do hate change for making me leave Malaysia. and i do hate change period.

=)

life... and how unpredictable it can be.

hey guys, I'm sorry i disappeared for a while, i just couldn't stand being around anybody for the last couple of months. i guess things have indeed really changed. so here i am, starting my new job at star bucks(started last week), continuing my job at JB while going to look for a job at the Melbourne eye. i guess keeping myself busy while not allowing myself to think of anything or anyone is one of the best remedies for me now, while raking a few grand a month ain't that bad at all either. so what's happened.. mm.. exams ended. you know what i say about exams. if it ain't good don't talk about it. im going home in January. i cant say when for sure because of some people who want to know the date. friends friends, what can i say, we've all changed. some for the better, some for the worst. i guess all i can say is, you know who you are. so just deal with it if I'm different when i come home. i'm no longer the usual chirpy funny person that i am anymore. i just cant deal with it. so like me for who i am or dont be fucked to read my blog.

so what do you do.. once you found out that everything you worked for has come crumblind down.

how are you people doing? i haven't been giving out regular updates of my life, and i still don't intend to. i am however going to continue giving out interesting advice that i keep telling myself to pretend that people actually do read my blog. Nicole and i finally broke up. i guess that i wasn't her perfect guy after all. so I've been reviewing my 2 years in this relationship. i guess, we weren't the happy couple people always perceived we were. of course we had our times that i enjoyed myself, she understood me, she was the one person that i could count on. but there were times where we were at each others throat so often, we couldn't stand the sight of one another. i do however know that we loved each other a lot. or at least that's what i keep telling myself to prevent me from learning the harsh truth, if there is one. i think she's moved on now, she has a happy life in Canberra and i am happy that i was part of her live albeit for a short time. i guess I'll always care and miss her always but there comes a time where i have to move on, even though I'm not going to like it, i need to go places where i don't feel that i belong to maybe find myself. speaking of places i don't want to be in, i find myself in the akaward position of being in between a couple that's in the process of finding themselves. its interesting that i see many aspects of their relationship similar to what i saw in my own and nicole's however this is different somehow. i guess the more people we meet, the more our point of view seems more and more irrelevant. i was also watching "bruce almighty" the other day. it brought in to perspective that we cant always have what we want. we might always think we know whats best, but the truth is we don
t and that's the saddest part of any story. therefore i dedicate this post to Nicole, we had a good run and i wish you all the best.

so.... the entire plot is crumbling down on you and what do you do?

hey boys and girls,

How's it been? I've been thinking about the whole concept of what is right and what is wrong. i mean.. I'm sure you've all watched the dark knight. pretty awesome movie. sweet action scenes, wonderful acting as well as as moral that would fit any story. but what really caught my attention was not only from this movie, but also from its predecessor, Batman Begins. from the first movie, there was this one line that Rachel said to Bruce, "its not who you are underneath, but what you do that defines you". then of course there's good old Harvey Dent's line in the sequel, " You either die a hero, or live long enough to see yourself turn in to the villain" these two lines really summed up both movies. on one hand, you have Bruce Wayne, millionaire playboy conglomerate, seeing that his city has gone directly to the dogs. what does every millionaire playboy conglomerate do? use his money on really cool gadgets. anyhu, how this connects to my point in life?, well although i have no money, i do however feel that these two lines are worth listening to. I've always believed that by treating people right, bending the truth, as well as trying to love everyone around you will actually make life more worth it. however, recent events have lead me to believe that by being nice, you're actually making yourself vulnerable to various degrees of pain and suffering. although by donning a mask allows you to have certain levels of skills as well as a certain sense of freedom, what we do with that gift is what makes us who we are. either we change the world, or the world changes us. then there's the 2nd one that Harvey Dent mentioned while being unknowingly insulted by Bruce Wayne. lol. that was a good scene indeed. with Wayne being his bullish self with an equally bullish Rachel, they both are upstaged by the equally bullish yet with a smile Harvey. "you either die a hero or live long enough to see yourself turn into the villain" is one of the most original quotes to have ever been uttered.. let alone by a politician. lol. but it is true, the film then goes on to show his transformation from a white knight to a psychotic, egoistical man who thinks he's above the law but is actually just a vengeful thug who leaves everything to chance. i'm kinda glad that they killed him off, because in the comics, after his transformation he was indeed just a gangster. in the movie during the very same conversation, Rachel tried rebutting his case by saying that history has already proven that statement true. Caesar, had gone mad with power, although he was just given emergency powers to protect the republic. sometimes being the nice open guy has its limits, and it might just open up doors that weren't meant to be opened in the first place. i just feel that we have so much to offer any one of the 6 billion people. however, what we do offer in the end often turns out totally different that what was originally planned. i totally forgot about the joker! how could i? i just feel that too many people are praising the acting too quickly. would the reviews be different if heath was still alive? would the numbers not grow to unimaginable numbers( they're saying that it might surpass titanic) if it wasn't a suicide case? however, he does give a sterling performance as a person more crazy and more sinister than even batman himself. I found the part where he was undertaking the social experiment the most riveting on his part. how often are we put in the position to "blow up the other boat". too many times. but we often forget that we should throw out the remote without thinking like that scaring looking inmate did. we should do whats right because it is right. not because we want to or because we have to. we just need to. its what makes us human and that'll be what i do. I'm done.:)

Regret

i am a total idiot. am i that stupid and ignorant? everyone is laughing right now.. because this is exactly what i deserve.

Interestinggggg

Read this.. U know who i'm talking about:P

The reasons why some men date older women are as varied as the women themselves. These women, because of their experience, often have more wisdom and self-assurance than younger women -- perhaps they may also possess more self-reliance and tolerance.

Some men receive mentoring from older women, who have had more relationship experience and often understand men well. Clearer about who they are and what they want, "older women" may even have an advantage in the dating arena.
In some cases, having a relationship with an older woman may work for men who don't want children:
"My wife and I have been married for almost 20 years," says Rocco. "She was 53 and I was 41 when we met. We both shared many values, including our faith. Our children are grown up now, and mine love her. So, it's worked out very well. I tell men who have been divorced at least once to go for an older woman... If you find the right one, don't worry about age -- unless you still want more children."
A man who dates someone who has children his age will run into the occassional social opposition. But there are men (like Ben, 25, who is dating a 45-year-old woman) who can overcome resistance. Ben says:
"A woman can be 25 and marry a man of 45 or 55 and, hey, whatever. Traditionally, it's been ingrained in our psyches... that's the way it goes, but not the other way around. We've always known that age may be an issue. But now that we've been together for a while, I have a new perspective.
Not all men are comfortable dating older women. Some men, like Clyde, worry about the future. Clyde says:
"I dated a woman who is 15 years older. We dated for a bit and then settled into just enjoying each others company. She has a fit body and is an attractive woman. People said to me, why don't I commit to her if we enjoy each other's company? I told them I worried about how things would feel in 10 years when she's over 60 and I'm in my 40s... And then further down the years."
Through my experience as a therapist and marriage counselor, age difference isn't as important in a relationship as most people think. What counts is whether a couple can create a working partnership and build an enjoyable life together. So, for you men who've fallen head-over-heels in love with an older woman, I've developed nine tips on how to enjoy your newly found romance:

1. Be a gentleman. An older woman wants to be treated with respect, like any woman does. While she might attracted to your rebelliousness or youthful attitude, she still wants you to treat her with good manners.

2. Don't get ahead of yourself. Don't worry about the future until you actually might have one. Take your time and allow the relationship to develop.

3. Stay calm. You may be excited, but don't overdo it. Have fun and enjoy your dates, but don't come on too strong. She has some reservations, too.

4. Be charming. Don't underestimate how powerful your smile can be. Use it often, make eye contact, and keep the conversation flowing. Pay attention to what interests you about your date, and show interest in her opinions, experiences, and activities. Be complementary whenever possible, and respond intelligently to whatever she says.

5. Don't focus on looks.
Give complements, but focus less on her physical appearance -- she may be anxious about it. And even if you're complementary, she may worry that you're too focused on looks. She wants to be appreciated for who she is, including her intellect and style. Compliments like "That color is lovely on you," or "You look great tonight" are safer than "You're in great shape."

6. Have fun. Keep your dates simple and have a good time. Focus on being pleasant, and not getting too far ahead of the relationship. Refrain from talking too long about any one subject without inviting a comment from your date.

7. Keep conversation interesting and light. Feel free to talk about anything, including your personal lives, past relationships, and love in general, but don't be the one who brings up the intimate topics first. Be wary of prying too deeply into her private life and secrets, unless the information is voluntarily offered.

8. Avoid talking too much about yourself. Keep your focus on learning about your date. Dole out the boring information about yourself. Punctuate your conversation with questions: "What do you think?" "Has it been that way for you?"

9. Pay attention! Listen to answers to your questions. You have things to learn here! Seek to get to know each other better. No matter how thrilled you may be about her, listening to what she says, watching what she does, and understanding how she feels are the most important things you can do.